God Found Us You

I love this book.  One night I went a little crazy on Amazon and ordered almost every picture book I could find about adoption for Ella.  A lot of them were really good, but sometimes the author would write something that wasn't really the way I would say it.  Then I read God Found Us You.  I have the books God Gave Us You and God Gave Us Two, but I had no idea the author had written a book specifically for adoption!  The first time I read it, tears welled up in my eyes... actually to be honest, I was sobbing.  It was everything I wanted to say to Ella, in almost the exact way I would say it.  Adam didn't understand why I would sob over a childrens book, but it just made my heart spill over.  So I thought I would share it with you. 

God Found Us You

Little Fox cuddled up to Mama Fox one night and said sleepily, "Mama, tell me again about the day I came home."

"Oh yes," Mama said with a smile.  "That is my favorite story of all.  When God found us you, it made me the happiest mother in the world."
 "Just by coming home??"  Little Fox asked with a yawn.
 "Especially by coming home," Mama said.

"For so long, I dreamed of you," she said, snuggling closer.
"Bout me?"
"About you.  I dreamed of how you would look, smell, even what you would sound like.  And every day I thought of how wonderful it would be to hold you in my arms."

"I started seeing you everywhere.  In the leaves of the giant oak and in the bark of the pine.  Even in the stars!  Oh, how I longed for the day that you would arrive, when God would find us you."

"And then I came?"
"Oh no.  No matter how much I prayed it would happen, I still had to wait."
"You waited and waited?"
"And waited.  But I knew that someday you'd arrive, when God would find us you."

"It made it hard to see other mamas with their children," she said, like she was telling a secret.
"You were lonely for me?"
"Very.  I could not wait until the day you'd come, the day God would find us you."

"I'd go up the cliffs and watch for you.  I stood there day... after day... after day."

"Did you ever want to give up?"  Little Fox asked.
"Sometimes," Mama said, rubbing her Little Fox's cheek with hers.  "But I trusted that God knew you, and knew me, and knew when we'd fit perfectly together."

Little Fox paused.  "How come I couldn't stay with the mother who had me?"
"She must have had very big reasons to give you up.  She must have thought it was best for you."
"Did she have fur like mine?  Eyes like mine?"
"Most likely,"  Mama smiled softly.
"She must have been as beautiful are you are handsome."

"I think she prayed like crazy that you would be safe, Little Fox.  I think she prayed for me as much as I prayed for her."  Mama's voice got all whispery.  "And God answered both our prayers."
"I came then?  To you?"
Mama nodded, happy tears in her eyes.  "You came then.  When God found us you, you made me the happiest mama in the world."

Little Fox smiled and then thought for a moment.  "Mama, will you be my forever mama?"

"Always and forever.  No matter what," she promised.  "This is where you belong.  Here, with me, my sweet child.  You are mine.  The best gift in the whole wide world.  I will always love you and treasure you and celebrate the day you came, the day God found us you."

Mama Fox tucked Little Fox into bed and he giggled through her last kisses.  They said their prayers and whispered, "Nighty night," just like they always did.  Little Fox was glad that he had a cozy home and good food and a mama who loved him very, very much.  And he went to sleep dreaming about the day he came to the big woods... and first smelled his mama... and knew he was loved... and finally home.

"When God found us you,"  Mama Fox whispered in his dreams, "you made me the happiest mama in the world."

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Jacob, Gavin, Casey and I were praying together the other night... and I realized something.  Every night for over a year, we've been praying for their baby sister in Russia, praying that she was safe and happy and healthy.  Praying that she could feel our love, even if it's halfway around the world.  Praying that God would wrap her in His arms and take care of her when we couldn't.  Now here she was, sleeping soundly in her crib across the hall.  We don't have to hope and pray she is safe and happy and healthy anymore.  She is here!  She is safe and happy and healthy...  she is loved beyond measure... and we are so blessed to finally have her home.